visit to shivganga temple - A lesson for life

Today we visited shivganga temple, outside bangalore, around 40 km on the tumkur side. There were 4 people (me, vishal, pramod and sunil) and 2 bikes. I went to mama's house, put my bike there, and then we started to travel. Somehwere outside the bangalore, we did our breakfast, and reach to temple around ammmm... some time.
All the temples are made inside the rocky caves. The entire hill was of one single rock.
There was one temple at the base, where it is said that if you pour ghee on shivling, you get butter. We didn't wait for butter, and move on after drinking Jaltirth. We move further on the hill and start what approximately can be called as treking.
First, I thought it won't be difficult, as there was no slippery, and presence of well maintained stairs. As I have done trekking before, and completed it properly, I know that this trek will be as a normal trek. Meanwhile, Pramod was taking our snaps with his camera. That is one of the advantage travelling with pramod. You wont have to worry of the camera. The other is he knows the local language.
As we start the trekking, to my utmost surprize, after walking about 50 stairs, I started loud breathing. Vishal was giving company to me. The distance between the two groups start increasing. And somehwere near the middle, I thought this trek is not possible for me. There is no point in testing the body, when you can feel that your body will not stand up against it. But still as Vishal was insisting I somehow managed to trek about 75% of slope, sitting and taking rest at approximately each turn. This was a great shock for me, as I never tired so much before in any of my trips, let it be IIT trekking, or again temple climbing at Tirupati. Due to loud breathing, I was not able to speak, unable to answer or comment on Vishal's statements. I started thinking about the reasons why my body is not cooperating with me. It can be because of slipping for short hours at previous night, or not taking lunch daily, or may be because its heat and no humidity in climate. But I do not enterain the thought that my physical stamina is reduced.
Then somewhere about 75%, I gave up and told Vishal that I am not continuing, and he can go ahead. I was feeling shame, but at the same time, keep telling myslef that don't do the things which you cannot do. Here then Vishal departed me, leaving a 2 litres of Sprite bottle, and two chocolates, and I sit there in front of Nimbu-paniwala under the shadow of tent.
Sitting there, I watch childrens going up and down, tired girls putting one hand on knee and trying to walk, ladies trying moving with the help of stick in hand, one group of tired men sitting at each step but still continuing, monkeys waiting around the customers for when will they throw the foo.. I kept sitting there for a long time, and when my breathing was normal, the thought of climbing up came in mind.
The battle of mind is always unpredictable, you never know what thought will cross you and which mind will win. Same was happening with me. One mind saying. "why to carry on? most probably the chances are that I will give up somewhere in between, and my friends will pick me up while coming down. Even if I somehow reach the top what am I going to gain? Will I have enough energy to enjoy the scenery? Aur badme chutiye utarna bhi to hain."
Other mind tell me,"what the worst would happen? I will stop in between and the party will pick me up while coming down. And while coming down, I can always take rest, if I feel exhausted. But lets see what are the advantages. I will feel good as I have seen everything. Will I really feel good, when someday I realize that I came so close to my target, but can not complete it. If I do not complete this today, I will never put myself to the extreme."
Finally I made up my mind, I remembetr my own words, "Nothing is impossible, given enough time and resources." I was having plenty of time, and just enough resources (remember one sprite bottle, and two chocolates). So I started climbing saying my favorite words.
"
Vakratund Mahakay suryakoti samaprabha,
nirvighna kurume deva sarvkayeshi sarvda
".
My legs were trembling, sight was not at full, hearts beating with double ratebut I walk using the rails at the sides. In that journey too, I rested at each turn, I gave sprite to some peoples, talked with monkeys, shaking head after every step so that chakkar vakkar na aa jaye. And finally I reach at the top. Pramod and Sunil were there. After seeingg me Pramos shout, "Arey yeh dekh kaun aa gaya, kya Vishal tu kya bol raha tha?"
Thats it. One more small achievement in life which I will remember when all hopes will start vanishing , when all the misfortunes and all guru, shani, rahu, ketu target me. I didn't visit any of the temples which were there. I don't feel I should. If the God was not supporting me, I was not have been here. Going inside, those caves will not do any favor for me.



And then lying there, I thought what is the God? Most of the peoples finds in in statues, and rocks, or pictures. Scientists say that the God is out of the universe. Some peoples say that God is everywhere. But for me God is in the most beautifull thing on the earth, and that is our brain. If not then who give me the command to continue tracking. Who tells humans what to do. Its our brain, and thoughts inside it, who drives us. And as opposed to God, Evil also lies in our brain too. Evil takes care that God will always have work to do. See my theory is perfect.
After that, two more times my legs pain while returning. Once while coming down from hill, I got a cramp in my one leg, and on the next step, one more cramp in the other leg. And other time when we stop for lunch, and as soon as I got from bike, the cramps return and I was unable to walk, and even stand. But till now, I got lesson of my life, that I am never exhausted, never till I have my brain at place.
And I learnt one more important lesson,
I have to start regular excersize as early as possible.